The Whole 30 Challenge: Days 20-21

Day 20
On Day 20 I'm still feeling a bit down about Day 19. Andrew and I went to Hardly Strictly Bluegrass, an amazing free festival in San Francisco. Instead of indulging in the beer, cheese and crackers I would usually enjoy during an outdoor concert, I drink La Croix and snack on berries. My reward is a major case of heartburn that sends me home early, and causes Andrew to miss Emmylou Harris, whom he really digs. While my fellow is enjoying some benefits of the Whole30 (he's lost a few pounds, seems to be enjoying all the cooking I'm doing and is digging my new-found confidence) I can't help but tally up the ways he's sacrificing-- a boring birthday, being dragged home from events early, endless dishes to do as I cook, cook, cook.

Day 21
I am seriously wondering if I should keep going for the full 30 days. Between work, yoga, relationship and diet, I'm feeling I'm tapped out. My well of willpower is drying up. And although it's only Tuesday, I'm obsessively thinking about this weekend's upcoming camping trip. We're going to Yosemite with six other people. That means inevitable camping things-- s'mores, communal cooking, beers. Not to mention the carpooling on the four hour drive, where fast food stops are likely. If it was old pals, I'd sheepishly make the plans work around my Whole30 needs, knowing that they wouldn't mind too much. But the folks we're going with are all new friends, and presenting myself as a high maintenance chick is not what I want to do."Oh, sorry guys, we can't stop at In-N-Out because of my diet. Oh, no beer for me, thanks, I'm watching my figure." Ugh. I don't like that girl.

But quitting one day before camping and introducing hamburger buns, chocolate and beer all at once would undo all the good work I've done and make it impossible to pinpoint what foods make me feel gross. So do I stop NOW and reintroduce foods into my diet this week? I'm not prepared to do that. I'm feeling overwhelmed and almost want to skip the camping trip. All in all, I'm feeling healthier, my pants fit better, but I'm feeling deeply un-fun.