It's been an emotional few days for me... although rule number one was to Be Flexible, I'm finding it hard to give myself the space to actually do this. I've been beating myself up A LOT over ditching the strict diet while I was camping. I'm annoyed that I came so far only to falter. I'm disappointed that my weight loss has slowed/reversed. Mostly I'm frustrated that the reintroduction of foods went poorly and now I don't know what non-compliant foods work for my system.
In short, I'm pretty pissed at myself.
But I look back to the moment I decided to have a glass of red wine... and I'm not sure if I'd take it back. The diet was really interfering with a weekend of fun that I'd been planning for months. Not because not drinking makes me less fun, but because I was being so introspective that I couldn't enjoy the moment. Taking my eye off the diet for a while allowed me to focus on the people around me.
A few things I've learned
1) Planning and planning and planning some more is the only way to be successful with a really strict challenge such as the Whole30
2) Being Flexible might be the biggest challenge of all.
3) I have some growing and learning to do around being kind to myself.
4) I am not going to be perfect at every challenge for the next year, so I need to look at this as a process, and not beat myself up for slipping. I'm creating a stronger, healthier me, and this work isn't accomplished in a day.
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